make

All I want to do is create things.
I've suffered a severe allergic reaction to hair dye and fallen behind on my work. I don't know how to get back on track. I don't know how to get started because the piles of work are too tall for me to see over. I am in another student film so I don't have weekends to get work done in. All the drugs they have me on make me sleepy, weak and dizzy. Ihave to get my schedule worked out for this january and next semester, I have to start thinking about study abroad. I am not sure how to get where I am trying to go. I crave guidance and I need help but I don't know who to turn to. I can't believe my two best friends are gone. They anchored me, with them around we were going through all this together.
I don't understand how people transition from school to work, I don't know what skills I need to get a job, I don't know what kind of a job I want. I would love to work for a magazine, I would love to do something involving DIY and design. I feel like I need to get started on all of these things right now but I can't find the time with the work I have to do and the depression that weighs on me.
I want a mentor, a role model, an advisor. I don't know where or how to find this person. I want a big sister, someone to fall back on, someone who's advice I can trust.
I feel silly spewing about my small life on the internet. But I don't think that any life is small and this way at least my thoughts are released into the universe.